Come And Sit With Me
We weren't getting along very well the other day and I really had no idea why.
She had so many toys to play with and I just wanted to sit back and browse my phone because I was still trying to wake up - but still, her tears persisted.
I put down my phone and sat on the floor and like a miracle, she stopped crying, crawled to her toy box, picked out a toy and brought it near me and started playing with it.
I had sat on the floor to play with her in order to see if she would stop crying and it was as if, to her, I was invisible, as she went on and played with her toys joyfully by herself - and I just sat and watched.
- What had just happened? I was just sitting in the rocking chair on my phone while she was on the floor with her toys and she was throwing a fit. And now I scoot down to the floor to sit with her and the tears cease and she proceeds to play by herself? -
I was confused.
Then the story of Martha and Mary in Luke 10:38-42 came to mind -
"As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord's feet, listening to what he taught. But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing.
She came to Jesus and said, 'Lord, doesn't it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.'
But the Lord said to her, 'My dear Martha, you and worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.'"
I wonder why Junie was crying so much, and I thought... I wonder if I took it from her - what Mary found when she was sitting at the feet of Jesus.
When Mary sat with Jesus she didn't only learn from her great Teacher, but she got to feel what it was like to sit at the feet of the Messiah, the Chosen One. She was so close to The Lord that she could touch Him, can you imagine that? I think she felt much greater things that day that could never compare to having all of the knowledge in the world.
I bet Mary felt great peace that surpasses all understanding, a deep joy that could only be filled in Christ alone, a reverence for her Teacher and Lord, an acknowledgement of His sovereignty but a security in the deep love that The Lord has for us that He would want to be with us. When Jesus came into Mary's house she saw and knew that He wanted to be with her, He wanted not to just fill her cup, but overflow it with His teaching and wisdom. And what comes from His teaching and wisdom is a deep desire for us to know Him more fully, and when we know Him more fully, we learn to love Him. And when we love Him, we begin to trust Him. And when we trust Him and love Him and know Him we want to be wherever He is. Wherever out treasure is, our heart will be also (Matthew 6:21) - and Mary's treasure was Jesus. Because where Jesus is, we find life and love everlasting.
I think these feelings and this deep knowledge and love and trust was what Jesus was referring to - and Mary discovered that, and Jesus said that it would not be taken from her.
But I wonder if this is what I took from Junie.
Maybe Junie didn't feel that security and love and trust when I wasn't sitting with her and acknowledging her presence.
Maybe even when we don't sit in Jesus' presence we begin to feel lonely, unheard, disrespected, unacknowledged, and bitter - just like Martha felt, and probably like Junie felt too.
And so I learned two things that morning:
- If we want to show others even a little hint of the love of Christ, we need to give them our hearts, our attention, our acknowledgement, and our trust. We need to sit with them just where they are.
- We need to look at where are hearts are. If we are focused on our phones or social media like I am more often than I'd like to admit, or getting our houses perfect for guests like Martha was, or spending more time than you need in your closet trying to look perfect - and then getting bitter and upset because you didn't get as much likes on your photo's or your hard work preparing your house wasn't noticed or you weren't complimented on the 10th outfit that you chose to wear for and evening out - that's when we need to fall at the feet of Jesus and ask for Him to realign our heart with His. Pray that He would give you a deeper desire to know Him more in order to love Him more, so that He could be our treasure, not the things of this world.
God is always present for us to sit at His feet.
I am glad that I had this revelation the other day and I was able to correct myself and love and connect with my daughter by sitting with her, but I also know that I am going to fail at this again, because I'm not perfect and I am self-focused when our God is not. And I am so thankful that when my sweet girl is a little bit older I can tell her that she has an even greater Heavenly Parent - a Good Father - that is always there and will never fail even though her earthly parents can't help but do so sometimes.
He is always there for us to come and sit.
He is always pouring out his love and teaching so that we would know Him deeper and fuller.
He is always showing us His kindness by never moving from where He sits on the Throne, even when we move farther and farther away, even when we haven't come to sit with Him for a while.
He is there, and He is not going anywhere.